Puzzle

I may have been determined from the onset,

Being your companion, your soul mate, your guardian angel

Your friend, your soldier, your lover n your better man

It’s all I ever wanted for you

It may never occur to u, as u ponder in ua bliss

A sincere heart, an innocent soul, u’ve crippled

That once breadth no emotions, at all

Maybe I idolized u that much; maybe I love you so much

Maybe I wasn’t ready for the shadow of my prospects

Maybe my once patient persona ran out of steam

Maybe we should have tried to make it work

Maybe I should let go, but what if it was meant to be

It just needed time to grow on us…….maybe I will wait a little bit longer

But its good that it ever happened to us

After all, I respect u; Your happiness was/is still my priority

I hop u spoke your heart thro’ your mind by every word you said

You are a star, you brightened mine world

Standards well set, maybe for future atrocities/escapades

Many thanks are in order…. For your honesty n faithfulness to the one

I hop ‘he’ would do the same to you when such opportunity comes crawling

So it’s true, the mighty, the brave, all are humbled

What a sure test for ego-centric beings

Love truly is a puzzle, you truly puzzled my being n my understanding

Just like a flash I came, like a flash u tossed me out

But if u need a pal, buddy; u can consider me, I think I have the credentials….don’t I?

At least u know someone truly cherishes n treasures ua being

Let your man remember this always…

You are touchable, huggable, loveable, and respectable

Yes that’s you; one of a kind indeed

Irresistible, unpredictable, protect able

Believable, thinkable, thank able, reasonable, enjoyable that

Every thought of you is refreshing

I gess u now know me….just a simple, humble, abstract minded n yes that’s me!

Precious

What a nightmare this is..to my once soundless sleep?

Even though I try hard to get past that cocoon

You continue to shove past my push

That smile I long for it

A gorgeously glaring you that is your character

that I'll sacrifice my pride for.....

Why shiver in your presence?

Why stammer every time i wish to utter a word?

Why feel intimidated by your beauty, your innocence, your all

A total injustice to my innocence n my heart

When will you realize, it is a force, too strong for me to ignore

Please take it or leave it i love you! i need you

Just like a spell! U can’t undo when it is done

So until when Ha!.... will you continue to destabilize my nirvana

With that innocent beauty n lovely complexion

With a pure heart, decent stature that u r

From a distance I crave for you

Your Caresses, kisses,

Hugs, nagging…..makes the list endless

What an amusement park

Yours is! 4 real

What a gorgeous physique that is

Yes! Likening to a cokes bottle

What a charismatic u that is in u

Lased with a u that is your personality

I love your wholesomeness

Yes! What a complete package that comes with your worth

A priceless treasure! Yes that’s u

I love you! My precious one

The long wait.

Hallos are you there!!

Do you at all exist, coz I do
Do you really c the need of holding on to the long wait
Maybe I am giving up, or maybe am becoming impatient
Do yu really wish out for me?
Wat r we doing to make this possible

Where do we get the motivation to hold on?
Is it in our hearts, maybe our minds, or even our souls?
Why do we have to go through all this?
While we anticipate our perfect meeting, that complete bliss

Maybe I might be looking for it head high yet it’s only under my nose
Maybe I am desperate, or still I am only but being cautious
Still waitin upon you my dear sweet angel
I know somewhere somehow u r in existence

Still waitin for you; to make this fonder heart of mine smile
I gess u r wondering if at all I exist; I am here full of love n care
I feel it in me, I am gonna get you, neither luck nor fate withstanding
I know its thro’ our God’s will for it to happen

Lets continue kissing the many frogs; along this treacherous valleys of nowhere
While we long for that magical moment, that instance satisfaction, that complete kiss
Hopin upon hopes that we will finally complete that perfect equation
Never should u give up! Wipe away such thoughts! In in this bliss nothin is unwarranted

I only need one who I will truly love, commit too,
Cherish n respect always. Coz she will be my princess, my love and my all
One who is open minded, ready to give her all
And one who will truly love me for me. That true connection......

Where is me in me?

Why do I judge the deeds of men, the unseen not withstanding?
The me that I know, the me that I thot I knew, the me that I am yet to know
A complete shadow of my values, principals and personality
Oh…it’s crazy just being me! Its truly funny coz I don’t know which me suits me
Maybe the fight of my soul against the body is far from being won
Truly am only human, a complete deceitful God’s creation

Why do I hurt them, why do they love it? Why hurt too?
As a refreshing feeling, it doesn’t detest the body though.
Yet in the name of searching for love I gracefully devour my catch.
Why is my conscience not liaising with my body…what does this envisage
That’s a mystery that hurts the most
Why the compromise on the truth I know, for deceitful lie
Oh God why?

Somebody wake me from this slumber,
The night seems too long for the day
The best me is no more! The new me is no better too
With them I ain’t complete, without which any difference. None!
The search is unworthy, the wait is unwarranted,
Somebody must stop this rain from falling, the tears too.
I know I can do it, but not on my own, Oh God help me I need you more than ever.

The confusion lingers in me like bush fire
The pain hurts like venom, the truth bites
If this persists, the best me may never come, the worst me I welcome
What about the dream me that the future anticipates to usher in
It’s crystal clear! God I need you!!
Save this temple from the looming wrath, forgive me God for this idolatry
Forgive the imperfect me, from the imperfect we, your deceitful creation.........